This has nothing to do with anything today, just gettin' a little personal, feel free to skip it (c:
I had a "moment" yesterday.
Okay, maybe not so much a "moment" as a "freaking-out-entirely-mommy-crisis".
You see, my oldest is going to Kindergarten this year, in THREE weeks. ALL DAY LONG. And I thought I was just fine with it. No big deal right???
Apparently, IT'S A BIG DEAL.
I went to register him yesterday and they ask you all sorts of ridiculous questions..."What are your child's strengths?", "Does he/she regularly listen to adults?", "What makes him/her upset/angry/sad and how do you deal with it?"
And I'm sitting there thinking I already know all this stuff, but THEY DON'T. What if something happens and I'm not there? What if he really does get upset/angry/sad there and I'm not there to make it all better? What if they don't recognize all the things that are great about him and think he's just another average joe in a class full of kids????
Deep down I know that he's not going to get kidnapped by ninjas or tortured by evil spies and that his teacher, in all likelihood, is not an alien from another planet.
So why did I get a tight feeling in my chest and a lump in my throat leaving the school yesterday??? Why did I cry the whole way home at the thought of my little buddy being at school all day long?
Deep down, I know that this is just the beginning of another chapter in his life, one where mommy is just not *quite* as big of a part of it. I just don't think I realized that it would come so quick...I mean 5 1/2 years really sneaks up on you!
Really, I'm not crazy. I realize that it will be fine and I'll be fine and eventually, it really will be no big deal.
But for right now, I'm really dreading August 8th.
I fully realize that I'm venting here, but I assume that some of you have already gone through this or will go through it and darn it, there's just nothing else to do but whine about it (c;